Tuesday, November 27, 2012

The Strange

Life feels very weird right now.

I'm not sure why. I don't feel upset, but I'm not exactly happy either. I feel like I'm perched atop a parabolic vertex of life happiness.

This seems like such a weird place to be at. Where am I going to go? My senses tell me that SOMETHING is going to happen soon.

Things are way too neutral in my life right now, and I know that life doesn't work this way. Will something really bad happen that will ruin this for me? Or will something great happen and gift me with a level of happiness I haven't felt for almost a year now?

I feel out of control. Not running rampant, but pinned in a tight corner between the walls of uncertainty and fear. What has me cornered? What part of my life is intimidating me to the point where I have backed away and surrendered control?

I don't know what it is. I need to empower myself. I need to leave this parabolic vertex, or this metaphorical corner of intimidation.

I know what I want in life, and I need to go for it. This awkwardness should not be allowed to corner me.