This semester has been a mixed bag, and I am not entirely sure what I think about that.
I have gone through my first and second years of college at Vermont Tech., and I have loved the place, but I have been feeling a bit differently this semester. Maybe it is just because I am too busy as a person on campus, but I honestly don't think so.
I think the problem is the professors I have to put up with this semester, and Vermont Tech's lack of disciplinary action towards the professors who have proven, countless times throughout history, that they cannot teach the material they are expected to teach. What will Vermont Tech do when one of their students feels the need to speak to the Deans of the college directly about issues regarding a professor? You would think that they would thoroughly investigate the professor's portfolio, look at average grades and pass/fail rates of students throughout the years, and then use that information as evidence that MAYBE, JUST MAYBE they should be given an ultimatum:
Clean up your act, or get the fuck out.
Time to take a break, calm down, and then finish this post later.
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Okay:
I have to admit though: Maybe as a student I am being too harsh? Maybe I should be more direct with speaking to my professors about my personal issues? I don't know. I guess maybe I worry about them having some kind of future grudge against me, and then the possibility that they will look at me as "that one guy that complains," but who knows.
I still love this place. I started writing this post while I was a bit pissed off at the infamous 'system' but then I decided to take a break, and now I am continuing this post while I am in a more relaxed state. I have a lot on my plate this semester. When I tell people that I am the President of the Music Club, that I am a Resident Assistant, and that I am working on my 3rd year of college they like to look at me as if I am appraising myself too much or something. I really am not that type of person. I mean, I CAN be when I am feeling extra proud of myself, but 90 something percent of the time I am simply stating the fact that I have 3 major responsibilities I have to stay on top of along with other responsibilities that come with life.
For instance on top of all this:
I would really like to finally have a girlfriend for the first time ever. I strongly feel like I NEED and DESERVE a girlfriend (hence the all-caps typing), and I have a slight suspicion that I am making significant progress on this matter, but who knows. I am the nervous and shy type who isn't really on top of their game until I realize I am more than comfortable with the situation. I have a long history of liking different people, but then things get nowhere. Maybe things are going to change soon? I hope so.
So much on my mind, but only so many things that can be thought about at once.
While writing this I have realized something though. I have friends I can vent to, yes, but in my state of 'super-busy-ness' I seem to have forgotten just how much of a stress reliever writing on this blog actually is. I can vent, and it is me talking, and who knows? maybe people are actively reading this. It is just me here.
This was a long post because I haven't updated in a while, but (as mentioned before) I will really try to update more often now. I just need to get other stuff figured out, but I should be back to blogging actively in no time. ...I hope. :D
